So much death and depression

Just lost my fav dog to death this morning. His illness has been taken a turn of worst on Thursday and he was unable to move his back leg, can't even move to go to toilet. He was on his way to toilet when he collapse and been struggle to move. In the end he can only cirit birit at where he collapse but he was still able to drink the milk my mum gave him and still seems to seems to be 'gengki'. Perhard his will to live is still strong then.

Uncle move him to the garrage to keep him under shelter on friday. But on Friday night, the pain in his stomach was unbearable and he had been whinning the whole night. I feel sad and pain for him just hearing that from my mum, imagine my parent and aunt hearing it whole night. This morning, my aunt found him poo with blood. My aunt and mum do not want him to suffer anymore and so they call in the vet and give him an injection that put him to rest forever. The vet leave as soon as his heartbeat stop and marked the end of his 9 or 10 years life.

I have wished he could die in more peaceful way like his dad. I have wish him to be with me for another few year since he has always been happy and healthy all this time. It is very hard for us to know that our pet has fallen ill as they couldn't speak and express. We would often only notice it when they has been very weak, not able to eat and play around like usual and it's usually too late by the time we took it to the vet. The vet in Sibu is not as advance as what other country has in their animal hospital. We don't have x ray for animal and we never know what's growing in his stomach that cause him so much pain. Cousin said his way of dying is similar to one of their's long time ago - liver failure.

Another shocking news for the week, i would have expect his mum to die ahead of him since she's really old and weak now. She's always having such a hard time to get up to walk, i hope she will live just a bit longer. It's too much to lost 2 long time dog in a year. Sigh~ been getting more and more emotional as i aged eh~ I has raise him since the first day he's born, seeing him grow from little black worm as big as our hand to a huge dog. He's been good and obedient most of the time and is the friendliness dog we ever got in the family.

Rest in peace, 'mineral water' (his nickname), i shall always remember you in my heart~

Westpac NZ

Man this bank seriously need new management system!! how often u get a bank make a million dollar mistake because of simple typing error?? too bad they always discover it, otherwise we should all go open an account there and make a withdraw to see if they even make a mistake and accidentally make us millionaire.

Last month they make a mistake and transfer $10M to the man and the couple run away with the $ to HK. So far still got $3M not recover and the man is still on the run. (This man... even if he can run but he can't spend the $ freely cos he has to hide away, what is the use of those $$)

This time they transfer $4.3M to a company account when it should have been $43K and the manager said "We were hopeful, almost had our tickets booked to fly out to Hong Kong,"

Dangerous bank... never know when ur money will be accidentally transfer to someone else account! Am sure their big boss in Aus will all be jumping with anger at the moment.

For the news: http://au.news.yahoo.com/a/-/world/5684418/westpac-nz-makes-new-3m-account-blunder/

Another day

Eh~ i either keep sleeping when i don't want to or can't sleep when i want to lately~ terrible~ This morning got a call from Vanya at 11.45am, was actually still in the state of blur blur after waking up, apparently she finish her exam one hour earlier and come out earlier.... so nice.... i wish i can do as fast and she said the exam all exactly the same from past year!! NOO!! this is so unfair!! why Caulfield darn hardworking come out with new question!! i want lazy course leader too!! she said even the wording, the number are exactly the same!! darn u hardworking examiner!! give me something easier!!

When i open up my internet browser the first thing that catch my eye is this catchy huge wording "king of pop die 1958-2009". This is soooo shocking!! Went to Yahoo and it's displaying the same heading, within short time, everyone in FB has "RIP MJ" as their status. Even though am not a hardcore fan of his music, but i absolutely love his dance! He's moonwalk dance is an icon and everyone around me know him. Sigh~ it's just once again show how death can easily take away a person life so suddenly and easily. Even though MJ has been acting weird and so for the past decade, all that doesn't really matter for people who truly love his music and dance. People are all anticipating his big Comeback concert.

Anyway, went to the bank today. Me totally forgot about my term deposit thing and have to go to bank to dealt with the matter, the nice lady change my fee waiver till next year june, yeah, no need to rush to bank as soon as i got of plane =_= also i request to change the statement of my debit card to monthly. It's really scary and headache when you got 10+ pages of bank statement once every half a year~ scary to read and hard to keep track. (okay okay it's my fault for always using card as much as i can but cannot blame me mah, most place don't accept debit card for purchase less than $20 and ATM machine is not really available everywhere! I can't find ANZ in Caulfield! so must treasure the cash i got and use them as slowly as i can~)

Study~~ not much progress~ die.....

Youtube and blogger

Ahem, as been told by Siew mo and See yi, it seems that those Taylor swift youtube doesn't work in Malaysia!! shock!! never know youtube also got region one?? Be can u watch it in Thai?? i always think whole world can see it!! The video i put up is from Taylor Swift official Youtube site so probably that's why?? i thought official mean better mah~ can support the true owner.... now that it seems like there's copyright and limit for australian niah.... I go search for Substitute, u can go try again by go youtube urself or click the music label on my blogger to link u to the post bah~ I definately recommend u listen to the Jon Schmidt video on Love stories post, The piano and Cello version of Love Story meets Viva la vida is really good! The music stuck in my brain for a while~

As for Siew mo can't leave comment problem, dunno why u alone cannot, it seems long long ago, eh... i think before i come back to Melb u can leave msg leh~~ haha try use ur other email see, i know i close the open Id function etc cos my diary part really quite boring personal seft satisfied complain and daily stuff hahaha don't want it to be view by too many stranger cos i dunno how to add lock to some of thr post in blogger, i know Xanga got that function and enable some post to only be able to view by friends. Blogger need improvement on this probably...

Exam

Still have one more left, and honestly, long exam period is really bad, suppose to be able to study relaxingly but it get too relax that i tend to read and forgot, cannot focus when study, sleep longer than i usually do yet still few soo tired~ sigh~

Law exam hopefully i can pass, didn't finish the paper again~ darn exam, got 4 questions, each got part A and Part B, some got Part C, each part have (a) (b) (c) and each little session is of different topic, flick note also need time bah!! i wish i score in the one i did. I just want a pass! When i got out of exam i was calculating the mark for the question i did do and OMG!! only 48!! only until later i remember the total mark of the paper is 70, lazy lect make the total mark 70 cos out exam is 70% so 1 mark 1% easy to count, huh~ so got hope to pass~~ maybe....

After the shock from law exam, it bring back a little of the exam tension for me and study my butt off for Acc info syt and fin mod. The exam is pretty easy, at least i look down and can do most of the question but, multiple choice.... link this statement to the correct situation sort of question very easy to do yesh, got a lot of spare time left yesh BUT it's the type of question that lost mark easily!! NOO!! i scare this sort of question.... but shud be fine bah~~ I actually do hope i can get a Distinction for this sub... but am happy with a Credit

Yesterday Cost info is the worst, i dunno what's wrong with me with this sub, it just seems that it's not hard to study and understand, it's jst stuff i read jst don't stay in my mind. The calculating part is really shud be quite straight forward but i just don't seems to know how to do it and that situation happen again in the exam... i don't know if i can pass this.... Feel really bad that i gonna waste another $2000 of my mum $ to repeat this unit.... I confirm with friend and it seems that we cannot do the core subject in summer semester so I can still have my holiday and prob try get an internship but i may need to take up 5 sub in one of the sem to make up for it if i fail....

Last one will be Company report, yesterday cost info has for more or less make me feel stress and bring the tension back to study my butt of~ me worry about this sub too~~

Due to depression me call up friend for a chat and shimata! gone over credit limit by $21.50 this month, darn! no more phone call for the nxt 3 days haha till my account renew and odd enough, the phone company suppose to direct debit the $ out of my account for the bill but they haven't done that! what's now, shud i keep quite? i remember the girl said sth about 3 months for the first bill and blah blah.... oh well will go ask them somedays next week....

Now i know.... i get awful headache whenever am too stress.... got that once last year and yesterday i got it again, still feel a bit unwell cause of the headache.... it's the time when rationality cannot control the emotion... Even if i told myself don't stress, let it go, what done has been done, too late now, shall seek solution later but it doesn't work this way... It's not something i can control... hope my heart cheer up sooner~ for now i don't seems can do anything to make it feel better.... Only time like this i feel my heart is not mind, can't control it (ahem here i don't refer to what what love feeling hahaha, it's more individual thing)

The Unfortunate Location

One of the random article read from Yahoo regarding these nice house located in awful location. ( the reasons varies for each case) And that could easily make the house market price goes down and some people are willing to put out with the bad location for the nice house since they could never afford one like that in good location. It's an interesting article to read though. Among the house they talked about personally i think this house is not that bad lah. You just has to accept the fact that the train is ur neighbour and it goes thorugh ur front yard. The reason i said it's not tha bad is cos the train only run pass it once or at most twice a day, so really not much effect. (but then again it also telling u how remote this place is!)
The location, the house, all sort of remind me of the trip to puffing billy with Be, her aunt and cousin. Ahh~ brings back memory, i wanna go there again.... it's really nothing special about it, very ordinary kampung area of a western country, soo ordinary that we would easily overlook it's beautiful and quite atmosphere and scene. It's probably not a place we usually desire to go but it is a very nice getaway trip for u to enjoy when u want to go to somewhere natural.

some picture from the puffing billy trips

When the women said "The conductor always waves, It almost counts as a charming defect.” in that article, its really brings back memories, residents around the train route or random pass by person, even those in the car, will all wave at you when the train goes by (since people taking the train all randomly wave at everyone hahaha, and hmm... i remember we did that too when we went for hostel trip back in my boarding school life in NZ) Resident around would come to watch the train too~~ It's almost unforgivable to urself for u to not join in and take part and enjoy the silly waving too hahaha~

Well it's not necessary have to go take trip such as puffing billy to enjoy such atmosphere, can simply take train to any more remote area then take bus there (like the trip to tulips farm back then) that one will jst cost u bus fare for a day but of cos have to make sure got friend to get lost with and at least check and know how to go home hahaha the worst is get lost for a while mah, am very used to it, I NEED ADVENTUROUS FRIENDS!! people all not as siao and random as me here T_T only Be can put up with that side of me and enjoy it hahaha but by far it's all fun mah, for both of us~ this holiday gonna drag vanya to go with me!! Since me promise go beach with her (yesh beach in the winter! hahaha we jst wanna enjoy the sea view... probably try other beach, been to chelsea edi this year so it's not that tempting for me edi....) i wonder why we always wanna go beach last time but never go ah Be?? haha we always end up more tempted to food and city life and malls?? hahaha

Article link: http://www.nytimes.com/2009/06/18/garden/18houses.html?_r=1&no_interstitial

T_T

Hmm... this one week study break is not doing me any good, it's been like holiday life for me, only difference is a study a bit a day (can't get myself to study for long hour cos the tension isn't there) now that the exam is on tue and wed, i start stress up and think eh what have i study liao ah?? am doomed! very very doomed!!

Mum said my fav dog is sick again.... T_T and this time it's seems that it's quite serious, and that he might not make it till me return at the end of the year. Vet suspected there's "sth growing in the stomach" (chinese way of putting it) It is some sort of trend here that the nice and obedient pet usually meet their end earlier than the headache one? I know this day will come sooner or later for him. His turning 9 or 10 this year edi. and die, but really i think that's not that old yet!! Check out his mum, she can barely walk now, am more mentally prepare for her death than this one T_T Am getting more and more emotional on stuff nowadays (sign of aging??) i mean it's not like i never lost a long time pet before but this one, he just has been there as long a i remember and and i guess deep down me is hoping he will continue to be there for another couple of year and it make me feel empty with the thought of he won't be there anymore soon.... I hope this is just another 'worry too much', hope he will recover soon... haiz.....

Another thing is remember me mentioning that my aunt keep a goat as pet? well not it become 2!! she get another one -_-|| seriously! why wanna keep goat as pet at home ah?? is not like our house compound is really that big ah!! ah oh well~ as long as i don't have to take care of them hahaha (mum said my aunt and my uncle even build a shelter for them) me suddenly fascinated and want to know what our neighbour think ah when my aunt first have them cos according to mum they have been "meh" quite often and loud, aren't it weird that one morning u suddenly wake up by the sound of goat?

Taylor Swift again

I like Taylor Swift voice and how her song always tells a story, which is what make all her mtv soo good to watch. Then again, unless the song tune is really good that it can stuck in my mind, i can't find myself loving the song that much without the mtv -_-||, somehow the mtv, with the story, with her song going, all come in soo pefectly.

"White horse" is one of the example for this, i honestly didn't really have much feeling and thought on this song until i watch the mtv on youtube. Her song always have a story, knowing the story from visual in the video make it different, it become so much sadder when u get to 'watch' the whole story, darn it! make me wanna dl the video!! there's go my HD space....

Enjoy this one of my fav Taylor Swift's mtv hehe~ i mean love story and tears on guitar r nice but too high school for me (ah~ i can sense myself aging... start to get sick with typical high school theme.... but then again compare to those can literally make u sleep soap drama i would still prefer high school theme bah hahaha)

Sharp EL 738

I just bought another pricey calculator, T_T i can heard the 'ka ching' sound of more $$ flow out of my bank account..... There's something with the education system nowadays that seems to like to 'corporate' with those electronic device manufacture to shake more $$ out of our pocket -_-|| I have to buy this financial calculator for the exam sake when that B**ch course leader/lecture/tutor decided she won't give us the PV and annuity table for exam, ta ma de!! that table is so much convenient and easy to use and only told us that a week before exam start, very 'responsible'!! (not to mention TIME is very VALUABLE during the exam for ME!! i always struggle to finish the paper and great, now i have to use a not familiar calculator to do extra calculation when i can totally skip it and get the figure in one look at the table)

This piece of pricey gargnet cost me AUD$94!! I remember my currently 5-6 years old Casio FX570 only cost me around RM50 that time ah!! Even my that very expensive Casio FX9750G that have too many function, some which i never use or don't even know how to use, cost NZ$120, a little bit more expensive than it. If we weight the cost V benefit(function)this one shud jst cost around $60 bah!! $94 is overpriced!! All these calculators.... sooner or later there will be people (usually poor student) been force to live in poverty thanks to calculator! Now i got calculator for general maths/science student, calculator for Statistic student, and calculator for financial student -_-||

Calculator, esp these sort of multifunction one has always have the boring rectangle look, shape that everyone can accept and used to, so no comment to it's look and design, only complain is why does it look like one of those older Casio scientific calculator (like the one my cousin and brother use during their high school in 1990's?), the only features that show this calculator is one of the new product in the 21st century is it got shinnier button. >__< (well, not that it's really a problem, it's just that after spending almost $100 on a calculator i feel a bit grumpy and have a lot of complain even on the small insignificant thing) i seriously feel a bit disapointed when i got it. It look old model, plain design compare to my old casio for now let's just hope it's quality match that price. My FX570 has survive numerous time of falling during all these years of services. (those falls including a 'happy flight' down a few steps on the stairways to the hall in Methodist and produce loud sounds that echo thru the building)

The main difference between a financial calculator and our regular scientific calculator is the button where we usually expect cos, tan, sin to be is replace with PV, FV, depreciation etc (it still have the sin cos and tan button, on the second floor) Since it basically look like Casio i jst have to focus on mastering "how to calculate PV" and how to calculate the annulity" and right now am still focus on study for my law and Acc info (which don't need it at all) so didn't get much chances to fully utilise my $94 yet.

According to Monash Business and Economic department's policy, we need to get the "approved for use" sticker for the purpose of exam for the calculator, so the poor calculator has got this sticker sticking on it in less than half an hour after it has been purchased. (i have to take lift all the way to 10th floor for that sticker and how come Calyton got nicer quality sticker?? when i got the sticker in caulfield it's jst one of those easily torn, ordinary paper one which probably leave mark on my calculator screen if i try to tear it!! clayton one is plastic type sticker which won't leave mark on the calculator if u peel it off ; they stick the sticker right on the shinny screen at the area where the brand and the model of the calculator is)

PS: it's amazing how i could write so much to complain on a calculator, i shud consider having a new label for my blog name "complain" maybe.....)

World Airport Awards 2009

One of the random piece of news i stumble across when i was checking out my balance credit on my 3 mobiles and go use my free unlimited news package (rugi if i don't use it, and now internet for peak hour is slow -_- though not as terrible as what i experience last year).

Anyway KLIA still maintain as one of the top world best airport. This year winner is Seoul Incheon though follow by the unbeatable Hong Kong and Singapore Changi. I wanna see Changi airport!! haven't been there leh!! (go singapore go via Johor these day.... cheaper mah and i haven't go singapore for years... no purpose to go there)

If you look at the winner by category Singapore still the best overall, been listed as one of the top 3 in most category. As for KLIA of all the thing, it get rank no 1 for immigration service -_-|| Wonder by immigration they refer to that passport check section only or including the quarantine. If quarantine we r indeed very nice, jst some scanning not like SOME country here, can literally took u almost 1 and a half hour to clear immigrant. (and we don't have dog running around sniffing u as well) KLIA also get nominated as best staff service. Staff include the luggage handling?? if so this so not true!! I have heard N incident of luggage got 'broke' into. Lucky we all experience traveller and is wise enough not to put anything worth stealing in there. My own experience my luggage go happy on KLIA luggage belt while i went to my transit flight to Sibu. -_-|| ever since the incident i make sure i check with transit counter that my luggage is coming with me not happy at KL when i went back to Sibu edi.

For best airport by region in Pacific, Auckland rank 1 follow by brisbane and then melbourne, so sydney and perth airport even worst than Melbourne O_O!! that's a surprise~ Melbourne airport is very ordinary. As for Auckland one well it is better than Melbourne lah, bigger but that's this one thing i don't like about it and now they get smarter and change it edi. In Nz there is such thing as departure fee, after u finish check in you don't go joy joy shop around or sit around daydream at ur flight gate just yet, u have to go line up to pay if no mistake $25 departure fee. Last year they change this for Auckland, now all flight fly from Auckland the departure fee is include in the ticket edi. Every airport charge some sort of fee but have to go pay purposely is mafan eh!! (But really this departure fee thing is ridiculous, why would u wanna charge people to leave ur country, imagine u go watch cinema and after u finish at the exit they ask you to pay to get out -_-, people sure come out with weird idea to tax people ah~)

Anyway if you are interested or too boring got nothing better to do you can check out the site, the source where all these info in this article from: http://www.worldairportawards.com/

idleness continue....

study been progress with extreme slowness -_-|| law is so much easy to read then to summarise, everything seems either very important or pointless, what shud i do!! baru summaries 3 chapter perfectly (the rest all eh... half way give up.... or don't even wanna look at it....)

It's been raining raining and raining -_- everyday the sky look sooo gloomy that i don't even wanna go out and am running very very low in food supplies. I hate this sort of weather. The sky look like some big storm is comming but it's not, jst some shower + stupid cold strong wind. If only it just shower like malaysia rain and cepat-cepat get over it. Melbourne's rain is somewhat like my laziness... dragging things that i need to do long long, took ages to finish and slow progress.... i need to go get the darn financial calculator too!! Walao study nowadays need several similar function calcualator, education system these day only know how to waste people's $!! I intend to go buy it today and go get the "approved for use" sticker thing as well for the calculator but i slept till 1pm -_- [chat with Roger till 4am yesterday accidentally....]

H1N1 is been spreading madly together with all other winter flu in Melbourne and by far am still blessed by God and taking good care (i think) of myself so am yet to fall to this epidemic. I guess the coldness help spread it.... what i don't get is it seems a lot of people kena lotto leh~ they just come over Melbourne over the weekend for a Fotty game and they went home with H1N1 -_-|| (here i refer to people who purposely fly to melb for the game) i mean there is soooo many of us here who are expose to it almost everyday when we are walking on crowded street, taking bus/train/tram etc yet not everyone get it straight away mah, so it must be some sort of 'luck' there for those people to get the 'prize' in one shot. Anyway, exam period must boost up defence to these flu bastard!! this is the worst period to get flu! My life and money is depend on this darn exam!

My life before exam

Whenever the exam is approaching, i would: (the list below are not in any order)

1. Sleep. In average i sleep 12 hours a day, i can sleep for 10 hours and then have another 2-3 hours nap section in the afternoon.

2. Feel like cleaning and tidy the room. Suddenly all those mafan daily chore become so interesting to do.

3. Suddenly FB is like a daily obligation. (in some way it even surpass the feeling of must study even though my rationality keep telling me study shud be my top priority) Been playing the stupid game everyday -_- and also do those silly quiz..... (some game need u to go there daily.... been playing those farming game.... been there daily to harvest and plant....)

4. Food. This one depend on mood, sometime i will cook myself nice stuff since even cooking become more interesting then screen and book staring. Some time am just sooo lazy that as long as stomach didn't said anything i can skip one or two meals.

5. Become a very serious internet addict. (am an internet addict when am in aus but it's just get worst when exam approaching, i would randomly google stuff that randomly pop up in my head, i would read online news everyday (nothing bad with keeping myself update with current affair yesh but angeline don't normally read news online and the fact i am now and it's daily thing, makes it not normal), i would read endless manga/novel (jst manage to stop myself to start reading another manga congrat me! cos once i start it's days and nights reading manga/novel till i finish or till that's the latest chapter available, if only am that passionate with the textbook)

6. I can foreseen me stay in room 90%of my time (the other 10% is for when i go toilet, showe, get food from kitchen) for the rest of the weeks, just like how i always do when i stay at home, no school and outing just make it worst cos i have no purpose of stepping out of my room.

Conclusion, my life is badly dominated by laziness, am lasy till the point i don't even wanna go out. It's edi reach the point of 60% sleep, 20% internet,10% daily life routine, 5% daydream and do random waste time stuff which varies everyday, 5% study with little progress. Sigh~~ i know i know not good hahahaha~

Happy hari Gawai and hari Keamatan to all our Borneo Bumi

Today is 1st of June and i forgot it's Hari Gawai and Hari Keamatan for us Sarawakian and Sabahan! We used to love this day, it's holiday~ It's been years that am not in Sarawak at this time of the year that i already start forgeting that we got this festive. Anyway hope everyone is having a nice Gawai and Keamatan day ~

June

First post for June, u notice the decrease in amount for post of update about my life, got lazy and run out of stuff to write, am sure nobody is interested in reading about some boring routine complain on daily life anyway hahahaha

Exam started in 2 weeks time and i have so far done very little revision, shame on me, despite the fact am in risk of failing some of the unit edi, sigh~ the coldness match so well with the laziness, i can go off sleep sleep and sleep non stop these day, i have hibernating nature maybe....

Lazy to study but 'hardworking' with facebook -_-|| been addict to this Geo challenge on Facebook, man if i were to be test on map and flag now am gonna ace in it! Been learning all those never seen or heard of country from there hahahaha~ too bad it's not examinable~

Also happen to come across this ariticle share by wai wai, in some ways it's inspiring, and it's on something that each of us have to dealt with eventually. Talking frankly at the end of life.

Influenza A H1N1 is spreading and news report on it EVERYDAY~ all those past history with flu been making every country leader concern and panic~ well there's no harm to take care of ourselve and don't catch cold anyway~ take care everyone, esp those of us who are having our final soon~